Tomorrow is Halloween, and the day we devote to pretending to be someone else. It's funny to think that for the first time in a long time, or maybe ever, I'm no longer pretending to be someone else. (sort of emo, I know, but working something out) I'm not hiding the most important relationship to me anymore. I'm not pouring my time and energy into dreams that aren't going to come true. I'm not taking into consideration a million what-if scenarios anymore and trying to figure out what I would do.
I'm here. I'm now.
I'm not keeping my hair long because he liked it that way. I'm not spending my time writing to him, I'm spending it on me for me. I'm not trying to be his perfect girl, just myself.
It reminds me of the illustrations I saw in my sister's chemistry book recently. Elements combined, bonded together are a completely different substance than themselves on their own. Just now testing out what kind of element I am on my own.
Time to remember and put time into my own dreams.
YES!
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